He is an average Joe. Just ORDed. A UNI freshmen. He wanted to be someone whom his peers will look up to. He wanted to leave a good impression for people around him. He is insecure with his own identity, seeks the acceptance from people around him. He is confused, not sure whether he has become who he wants to be. Or rather, he is not even sure who exactly does he want to be.

This is my first time acting on stage for God. I really felt happy to serve God on stage ... a rare opportunity to be on stage also :)

Even since i lost the feeling to be on stage after i left 'Young People's Performing Arts Emsemble' 5 yrs ago... I remembered those days when I receive the applause from the audiences at the end of every performance, flowers, photos....those 8 yrs of learning and performing on stage still remains deep in my memories. After i left the ensemble to prepare for my o-levels, I have been going back regularly to help out as the backstage crew, assistant Stage Manager, props, ticketing, mail boy, front of house,...then eventually, an audience. All the while i have been experiencing the backstage aspects of the production. Everytime i stand in the dark backstage watching the younger ones performing on the stage, how i wish i could once again step onto the stage and make the audiences cry and laugh with me. Although last year i was given the opportunity to perform, i rejected it. I knew my chinese standard has dropped drastically after being 'polluted' by the 'outside world' and 'corrupted' after my NS time'. Really haven't been using my std chinese for quite sometime.

I lost the confidence to go on stage.

My thoughts of going onto the stage came to a stagnant.

However, recently Jia Dai approached me and asked whether i would like to participate in a production that requires me to act... at the moment i thought of giving it a try, while still blur on what is going to happen exactly...

As things progresses, i found myself involving in more things other than acting. A team of us came together to think of the script, do filming, voice-over recording, editing of MM clips, rehearsal for the live scenes.... WoW!

Amazed by how God has brought people of different talents to come together for this production. Producer (Jia Dai), Directors (Zhen Zhong and Dorling), MMclip (Wei Long), Lights (Hong Yao), Sound (Manmi), Female Lead (Zhi Chun), Music Director (Derek), the hosts (Timothy and Carrie) and the supporting actors and actresses (Jesse, Joshua, Serene) in the production. We are like a body with many parts.

This part of the Bible came across my mind...

" 12 The body is a unit, though it is made up of many parts; and though all its parts are many, they form one body. So it is with Christ. . ." 1 Corinthians 12:12

" 14 Now the body is not made up of one part but of many. 15 If the foot should say, "Because I am not a hand, I do not belong to the body," it would not for that reason cease to be part of the body. 16 And if the ear should say, "Because I am not an eye, I do not belong to the body," it would not for that reason cease to be part of the body. 17 If the whole body were an eye, where would the sense of hearing be? If the whole body were an ear, where would the sense of smell be? 18 But in fact God has arranged the parts in the body, every one of them, just as he wanted them to be. 19If they were all one part, where would the body be? 20As it is, there are many parts, but one body.
21 The eye cannot say to the hand, "I don't need you!" And the head cannot say to the feet, "I don't need you!" 22On the contrary, those parts of the body that seem to be weaker are indispensable, 23and the parts that we think are less honorable we treat with special honor. And the parts that are unpresentable are treated with special modesty, 24 while our presentable parts need no special treatment. But God has combined the members of the body and has given greater honor to the parts that lacked it, 25 so that there should be no division in the body, but that its parts should have equal concern for each other. 26 If one part suffers, every part suffers with it; if one part is honored, every part rejoices with it. " 1 Corinthians 12:14-26

On the actual day, we came early to rehearse again til 4pm. Thanks for Jia Dai's box of Panadol Cold Relief, Derek's cup of warm tea and Jesse's bottle of honey lemon. Then we went to do make-up.

OOpss... although i have 8yrs of performing experiences, this is my first time putting make-up by myself - Self Service! I was given a small make-up bag from Jia Dai and the rest is up to me. Wow! So i chose a male toilet at the top floor to do my own make up... Pai seh... i thought nobody one..but... haiz... "nevermind, just this time only!", i thought to myself.

5pm we went into the auditorium to test mic and lights and sound.... I was really nervous! i wasn't able to hit the high note, i knew my clear voice is not back yet because i am still very sick since last night, have flu and sore throat and fever. I was really worried that i might not be able to sing well and get distracted easily because of any mistake i made... I took a tablespoon full of 'Jing Du Nian Ci An - Chuan Bei Pi Pa Gao' before i put on the lip gloss.

Then during Praise and Worship, i closed my eyes to pray to God to sustain my physical body, for me to remember my lines, hit the correct feel, sing the correct pitch..... God assured me to just go ahead with what i need to do later for the performance.

Praise the Lord for the wonderful performance! I really didn't expect myself to be able to sing better than what i have expected i can do. Those who were at the service would know of the overall atmosphere. Wow! So happy that Zhi Rong and Xu Mei came for service to support me!

I really enjoyed the production, and its progress as well. Thru this production, i got to work with brothers and sisters whom i seldom have chance to talk with. Serving in the LORD is so different, because it involves lots of prayers and God's direction and assurance and love for each other!